This Week # 16

Oh my god! I'm blogging!:P So it's been a while since I did regular posts on here, but I'm getting back into it. I've discovered that I'm much better at organising my blogging than I am at actually blogging. Procrastinating much!

1. Last Saturday I went to my friends 18th birthday movie night. I was quite anxious as parties are kind of  challenge for me but it was actually really fun.

2. I had my last regular shift at work :( They had to change manager and now they don't need me so I'm avoiding all internet shopping sites.

3. I had a driving lesson; In which I think I actually did some proper driving without my instructor telling me what to do!

4. I uploaded quite a scary blog post when I relaunched my blog. AND people actually liked it, I never expected the response I got so thank you if you're one of the lovely people who commented. (I even took a friggin' selfie for the post)

5. IT SNOWED! Which means 1 of 2 things; either I'm very happy because it's so pretty and I'm inside or I hate it as I'm in public and there's a 99% chance that I'll fall over.

6. I momentarily forgot about my money problems and went shopping. I blame Asos!

7. I discovered the wonder that is Pinterest! And the way you can enter any piece of clothing and find all sorts of ways to style it!

What did you get up to this week? Anything fun?  Let me know in the comments.

I hope you enjoyed this post and thanks for reading.

Love Sorcha 

              xoxo

Big, Scary and Personal | A New Blog

It’s been a while since I last posted on here. A few months ago I spoke about how I struggle with anxiety and would like to speak about it more on my blog. However, instead of just talking about it more I have decided to take my blog in a whole new direction and it's big, scary and personal.

I am officially becoming a mental health and positivity blog.

There are a lot of bloggers out there who talk about their anxieties and mental health problems and that’s great. It honestly truly is but here’s the thing; Personally I always feel like these people are so much further along than me. I’m still at a stage where I’m mostly at home, I don’t go out or see that many friends. Just to think about getting a bigger job stresses me out, public places are generally a bit of challenge and to be perfectly honest humans terrify me. I'm working on it.

So while I love that bloggers talk about anxiety and I’m aware that they have horrible days where their anxiety gets the better of them; I've still always felt like I'm on my own.

Hopes And Dreams

I intend for most things on my blog to be positive as I know from experience that being positive is a big help. Obviously, not all my experiences will be positive but I hope to share these too, as I think it's important for people to see that bad days are part of life. I want to write a blog not only for people with anxiety but for those of us that aren't very confident, are maybe struggling with growing up or who just need a safe place to retreat to. I want to stand up for and help anyone who has similar problems to me. I hope to create a positive environment where you can find advice, comfort or safety. Not to sound too dramatic or ambitious but I want to help more people understand their own or others mental heath problems.

My Plan

1. I intend to be to be as honest as I can about my own problems so that you can see why i'm doing this but also so that you can trust that any advice comes from someone who understands. Obviously, sometimes things won't go to plan for me and there will be a few things I'm not comfortable sharing.

2. In the case of anxiety, I will give advice on how to deal with it whether it's you or someone you know.

3. I will write posts on looking after yourself, being positive and staying motivated.

4. One day I hope to start vlogging (if I ever feel confident enough) and if this blog gains enough readers I would like to start a forum or website so that everyone can share their advice and help with each other.

5. I will continue to do lifestyle posts (I love 'em after all) but each one will have a positive twist.

So what do you think? Crazy idea or kinda cool? As this is something so important to me I'd really like it to succeed but I'm not sure if this is something people need or would like to read about. I hope my blog will become a positive place that helps people and that they enjoy but I'd also like it to help with my own confidence and positivity.

Got any thoughts, tips or ideas. Please let me know what you think in the comments.

lots of love,
                 Sorcha
                           xoxo

Goals 2016

New year. New blog. I haven't been very active on my blog lately and my last post was a little bit different; but I'm hoping that will change in 2016. I'm trying to set myself goals which I already intend to do as that way I'm more likely to succeed and feel encouraged; I want to set myself goals that I can work on when I want to and that I can tell if I've succeeded at.

Blog

Relaunch my blog - I'm going for something a little more different and a little more personal

Actually post - I'm going to start of slow to avoid burn out and hopefully find my feet.
Start a YouTube - maybe, possibly. I've always wanted to, maybe this year I will.
Take better/more photos - I want to improve my skills but I also need to take more during the week for my diary posts/Instagram.

Personal

I have to get a job - More on why that's such a big deal in a later post but for now just internal screaming.

Read - I used to read a lot and  definitely miss it; I also know that reading helps your writing so fingers crossed.
Exercise - I don't do nearly enough and so many people say that it helps so many aspects of life, I think it's worth a go.
Learn to use my SLR - There's no point having it if I don't use and that's that.

I found this fun New Years Resolution printable by Secret Owl Society. It's great if you're looking for some inspiration or a way to organise your goals.

What are your goals or resolutions for the new year? Do you have any tips on how to get them done? Let me know in the comments.

I hope you enjoyed this post. Thanks for reading!

Love Sorcha

           xoxo

Honesty And Anxiety

So on Thursday, I am going to Paris and Disney Land with my mum. Fun right? Supposedly yes. HOWEVER. I have anxiety.

I have mentioned my anxiety a couple of times on here but never gone into much detail. And to be honest that makes me feel like a bit of a fraud. I have sometimes noticed that in my blog posts I put on a bit of a front. I act like I'm very happy with a very instagrammable life when that really isn't true. 

My anxiety and depression often affects my ability to blog. I often don't feel up to it and part of that reason is that something that I'd really like to talk about is mental health. It's a big part of my life and something that people definitely need to talk about more. 

But that's the thing, people don't talk about it. People don't understand. So many people are struggling with it like me and yet it still feels like something you shouldn't admit to.

The problem is that when you look at successful blogs you see all the exciting things that people get up to, the nice things they buy and the wonderful places they go to. And it's hard to believe that anyone would ever want to read about a girl who is struggling at most aspects of life. 

It's been a weird week so far; It started with an anxiety attack and a psychiatric assessment where I had to recount the last two painful years, I cried my way through a shift at work today and all the while I've been screaming at myself in my head "WHY DID YOU SAY YOU CAN HANDLE PARIS". 

But I've had to think long and hard about if I should say no to something that I've wanted to do since I was a kid, just because of anxiety. Everyone says "Don't let anxiety run your life" But do you know what? That's bloody hard!

Honestly? I feel stupid being anxious about this trip. Most people aren't bothered by trains, or heat or whether they're going to be sick or not. Whether people can see them or not and if they can tell that they're scared. Most people don't freak out when there are a lot of people around. Hell! I never used to. But now I do. And it's not something I can switch off just because I know how silly it is.

I don't know exactly why I've written this post. Not many people read my blog , it's not going to make that much of an impact and I haven't really worked out what I'm trying to say but for some reason it felt like something I wanted to do.

So here I am, making a big emotional word vomit. I am hoping that this trip will go well. I know it won't be crazy and amazing but if I can try and just have a bit of a nice time that will be a big achievement. For my sister, I have promised a photo of me with Anna and Elsa so that's something to work towards. I would like to see the Eiffel Tower and also make sure that my mum has a nice time too.

I'd love to here what you think in the comments. Can you relate to any of this? If you have any tips, that would be AMAZING! I'm definitely going to be talking about this topic more.

Thank you for reading this post; I hope you enjoyed it or found it interesting.

Love Sorcha

           xoxo